Mesmeric Persiflage: taking a moment...

so i haven't had a fun blog-able story lately. it's really just a lot of work and more work. i can't tell if i'm tired of writing my life on a blog, or if i'm realizing that i'm just not that interesting. not sure...not that i'm not interesting, but just not in the mood to be interesting...uh..crap.

strangely enough, the whole Heath Ledger incident has weighed more on me than i thought it would. Anna Nicole Smith's death honestly didn't make me blink an extra eye lash...but this has seemed to be different...most people will always remember where they were when they heard about President Kennedy being shot, I'll Never forget where i was when i found out about the attack on the World Trade Center buildings on 9-11 and i'm not sure that i'll forget hearing my co-worker going on line and saying...omg, Health Ledger is dead. and while i don't mean to equate any of these events as equally tragic...they were just moments that stuck out in time. the weekend before he died i had gone to see "I'm not there" which is a tribute/documentary/independent film about Bob Dylan, and has Bob Dylan played by i think 6 different people, one of whom was Cate Blanchett, which is a phenomenal performance, but also by Heath Ledger...and it was so strange to hear that he had died because i felt as if i had just seen him. Almost like he was an old friend who i had just received an email from or something, and the thought of him no longer breathing was just absurd. But also, i think it was a realization that i'm getting older. Heath ledger of course, wasn't someone i was close to, but he was someone that was part of my growing up and someone whom i've always had great respect for. He was a heart throb but for more than just his amazingly good looks. As his fame grew he didn't just choose the feel-good parts in the feel-good movies. He chose challenging roles in movies that had substance, took chances, and made you think. He also didn't search for the spotlight and seemed to be somewhat awkward on red-carpets, somewhat vulnerable and uncomfortable. It's also strange that the Batman movie that he recently finished acting in includes his character as a really psychotic joker and he seems really scary. It will be weird to see him that way...

i don't know. it was sobering. it is sobering. and regardless of the speculation of drug abuse (which honestly i don't think was the case...not that i really know) the whole thing is just sad and still seems somewhat unbelievable. but...enough sadness and morbidity...

enjoy a few pics...