yet another lemming

so frustrating when you realize that something you thought was your own is really just an influence of society and not really yours after all. i Swear i thought of it before Everyone else did...I SWEAR I DID>....URRRGHHHGHGHGHGHGHG.

not that i'm a complete radical or anything, and i realize that 'being different' is the 'cool' thing to do these days. but boo hiss when something that makes you...you...is also what makes everyone else, everyone else.

i was picking through photos of old college friends and almost every other person had their nose pierced. now i don't want to see them. because they'll be like...omg, she did just what we did...not "wow, she's so cool and unique".

there was something else the other day that gave me the same thought, but now i can't remember it. it couldn't've been ipods, baby-doll shirts, or pulling your bangs up in bobby-pins on the top of your head...cause those i KNOW i've stolen from the crowd...though they're all worth it cause they're all great. i guess some of the hats i wear are a little more 'out there' than some are willing to go, but really, lots of people wear fun hats.

oh well, it's obviously so similar to what other people are doing that i can't even remember the other thing that was supposed to set me apart from all the other lemmings that think that they use their own mind to make decisions but really don't much.

boo hiss