another of many sleepless nights

my life is chaos...

i'm trying to stay positive, optimistic, and not completely lose all sense of sanity.
everyone says 'oh, it will be fine, everything will work out' EASY FOR YOU TO SAY

and yea, everyone has their own shit to deal with, but i feel like i'm walking a gang plank, i'm so close to the edge and i feel my feet slipping...
what will be there to catch me? how will it all end?

i'm tired and not sure how long i can hold on