Mesmeric Persiflage: June 2006

Someday...

i think i want to get married in this dress...

where did all the nice old lady's go??

ok...so, i know that i'm overtired, pmsing, and incredibly stressing about my current and future employment/living situations...however, i do not feel that i have in any way deserved or brought upon myself atrocious treatment by two different elderly women that i work for and graciously 'tuck-in' in the evening. (4-5pm)

i thought tuesday evening was bad, with the woman, whom i had just met that night, telling me exactly, and i mean EXACTLY where she wants every little thing in her apartment. i washed my hands when i arrived and she proceeded to yell at me for using a towel which is apparently reserved only for dishes, as if i was a complete idiot for not knowing so, and that i'd better use a paper towel before she got up and bitchslapped me with her cane. after quickly realizing that it was her way or now way at all, i left her apartment 45 mins later with a 'well, you did ok for your first time', though she did make it clear that she had made complaints to my supervisor in the past for sending 'new girls'. she explained that the reason she hired 'us' was to make her life easier not to have to explain to everyone how she wants her things done. and to her credit, she has outlived every person in her family and does deserve to have things how she wants them, but seriously...is a little courtesy and understanding too much to ask for?...i think not.

so, with that evening behind me, i thought i was in the clear. oh, how wrong i was. turns out, sometimes no matter what you do, you're doing something wrong. the next day, i got to 'tuck-in' another woman...who was consequently mad at me the second i walked in the door. i didn't answer her question of 'who's here?' fast enough because i was waiting for the loud screen door to close so she could hear me, then i turned on the light without asking her, and she just about blew my head off when she stated she had 'guys coming over soon' and i replied 'oh, that's nice...what guys?' ..."IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS". well, forgive me for trying to make your environment a little more enjoyable and if i try to make a little small talk. yesterday you were normal, today you are the crazy old lady from hell. what gives??

she soon after proceeded to yell at me for not getting her food EXACTLY how she said she wanted it, and then when she told me to leave, and i began filling out my paperwork, she told me i couldn't use her pen, and that i had to 'just...just GET OUT OF HERE'. fine, lady..whatever you want.

what happened to nice old lady's who told you the same stories over and over and were just as excited to tell you the 8th time as the first? what happened to the 'make yourself at home' and 'thank you for coming, you did a great job'???

well, those nice lady's have gone away this week, and have left us with crazy lady's from hell.

sometimes it feels like i'm only allotted glimpses of what life could be like. visions of possibilities, if only things were a little different. it feels so close, at an arms length, but just far enough that i can't count on it staying, i can't count on it actually becoming my life.

will i ever have what i see such a short distance before me...what i see and yet am unable to hold on to or even recognize as my own?

slacking

ok, so, for those of you who are loyal readers, my apologies for slacking on updating my blog. i've been busy/bored/sick of the computer...and also, i wanted to bask in the glory of the "I am Canadian" post of 06/08/06..cause in all seriousness, it's Fabulous. (if for some reason you still haven't seen it 8 times, get to it:)) or it could be cause my one faithful comment writer is out of the country for a few weeks, and so i figured i didn't want too many commentless posts...miss you mel.

also, i really dont' have too much to talk about. i work all the time, i still don't have a job or any leads in chicago, and yes, i'm still planning on going anyways by the end of july. my insanity has not changed a bit.

what has been somewhat new is the fact that i had 2 whole days off...that's right, read it TWO DAYS OFF. i almost didn't know what to do with myself...but alas, i filled the time relaxing, sleeping, watching tons of World Cup soccer and US Open golf, got to go dancing with some great people, and yesterday...afternoon...in the 90 degree 5:30pm heat, i got to finally play tennis with my friend damien. his friend Yemi came too, and so i beat both guys in 2 hours. it was beautiful...except for the fact that i was dripping sweat the Entire time. i'm sure that part wasn't soo beautiful. but it was great cause Yemi, after watching damien and me play for a while, joked about the fact that he should play both of us together cause we weren't as good as he was...then i beat him. but i didn't rub it in, no, no...ok, maybe a little:) love you yemi:) haha

so, back to another week...and i have to say, it's not good when you wake up in the morning from a dream about being at work, come to and realize that you actually have to go to work...haha. mais, c'est la vie. payday is friday..yumm.

alright, that's my humble 2 cents for another day.

time off

going back to work after a few amazing days off and NO sleep is never easy, near impossible really, and falling asleep on the job can never be good...oops...